being in the corner whyle there doors get shut behind your back

what can i say it seemed like there is no backing out of it this time, no matter how i tried to think around it, i finally lost it but who knows maybe it is for a better even if does not feel like it. i was the only one who could bring out those horrible feelings in here. What else it always seemed that i treated others better than i was treated when i run in emotional mush, thou i was no help when two people were in that mush but what can i do what is done is done even if i did not want it, there was no backing out from it this time after saying how horrible person i am and i felt that it was true. always when i am sad i am greeted with words "why did you come here than" who wants that no body i understand it is hard to deal with other people insecurities but once in a while you should return the favor.

i am not the easiest person to deal with, thou who cares we will see what happens in the future maybe i will be happier or sadder but i know one thing nobody this time gonna ask the other back. i waited but the dour was shut behind my back that is what i needed to understand that i am tired of asking to get back together. i know she will be happy with someone else who will be healthier for her. and i guess i have a chance to start from the beginning no matter where it brings me :)